What's in a name??

Mommy, Aunt, Hey you????

Today the Mother of my youngest daughter called....yes the one that left two months ago. The last child we fostered and the child my heart yearns to hold and hug every single day, just about every minute. We built a relationship with her bio Mom over the two years we had her, we felt like that was in the best interest of our little girl. So she called today out of the blue just to see how we were holding up and how we are doing. Funny, when I got the message I didn't leap to call her back. Is that bad? But it was like making the choice to get back on a moving roller coaster or not. but then truly, how could we not?? in steps my knight in shining armor husband who immediately called her back for me!! But after chatting with him a few minutes, as was usual, she asked to talk to me. He explained I might not be able to talk, but I agreed to and now she is planning to have our beautiful little one call me on Mother's day she says. She has a visit with her on Sunday and said while she has her she will have her call us.

Sounds wonderful huh? But who do I say is on the phone?? Do I say "Hi Aaliyah it's Mommy" or what??? I have no idea......I don't want to upset anyone for fear I'll never hear her precious voice again. It's already been over two months since I've heard her, smelled her, or felt her.... MaryKyle the other day was crying because she said "I'm starting to forget what she sounded like"

So here we go....I don't know if she will really truly call or not....I could never ever ask for a better Mother's day gift...now if I can just stop dreaming of it and not allow myself to get too disappointed if she doesn't. Then if she does then what do you say when you have one more chance - maybe your last - to talk to your child??? yeah...no pressure....

thus is my life...sorry to post my ramblings.